I don’t know but I want to try.
In five years I will be 40. A milestone.
Currently I’m busy with Lumiere - I am creating an icewall out of photos and poems - and a full time job. And a part-time job, which I am loving, since I’m learning about fashion retail. And a one-and-a-half year old. And a sweet fellow. And dear friends. Yes, I’m busy with all these things. It is a happy busy, but bursting at the seams nonetheless.
But it feels like once Lumiere is over, once the fall is underway, that my project for the winter is to take a deep dive. To ask myself questions, to answer them. To take a step back from (some of) the busy. To create some space for myself, to write, to journal. (Nights like this one, a cozy Thursday night to myself. The table is clean, the toys are put away. Joni Mitchell’s Court and Spark album plays on repeat.) To take a bird’s-eye-view of my life so far and pick out threads from what can sometimes feel like random experiences that have brought me this far (and then see where the threads want to go next). To perhaps renovate this space, this internet home.
Thoughts on a Thursday… we’ll see what happens.